a hiatus so long.

i was just well, delusional as always.
the lessons i learn throughout my 19 years will hopefully mould me into a better person.
no matter how painful these lessons are,
there is always a sweeter outcome, somehow.

i know i can be the most irrational person,
i do things without thinking,
i over-react in other instances,
but that is because im not a perfect being.

i have decided on a lot of things this year.
to be more affable, be more of anything positive.
where i am right now is not enough.
i have to strive for better things just to satisfy myself.
i hate trying to compare to others just to disappoint myself further.
i must acknowledge that i have certain strengths that others are also envious about.

too reflection-fied post.
yucks.
okay, i would like to say to all my friends out there, i love you guys for who you are and stay the way you are.
especially grateful for the times you stood by me
enjoy the holidays (hopefully) and spend a great weekend